Girlfriend

the thought of not being with you leaves me weak.

words evade me.

I’m gutted and on my knees.

i cant wrap my head around that you intend to leave.

it slices right through me, cuts so deep. 

fuck, see. I don’t know how this all was supposed to go, but I feel like we’ve come kinda far.

It’s crazy how much I love you, you know.

I’m dumb but I adore all you are. 

i’ll try to hear you, i’ll try to give you space.

i want to understand you but i need help feeling safe.

you’re something special, i dont even know what to do with how i feel. 

its a bit of a whirlwind 

i should be your girlfriend, 

you know this thing is real.

sometimes i get it backwards, confused,  hard to get through, I hear.

But I love you like no other, its true, and i want to keep you near.

its clear i need to switch up a few 

bad habits that leave us both diffused, 

but you’re worth any effort that i make

if you’ll be near me, ill do what it takes

i’ll try to trust you, i’ll try to have more faith.

i want to understand you and our space to be safe.

you’re something special, i don’t even know what to do with how i feel. 

its a bit of a whirlwind 

i should be your girlfriend, 

you know this thing is real. 

meow