like the night is dark.

lonely like its all my fault.

I’m a bottomless pit when it comes to love.

I’ll never be fit when it comes to love.

lonely

like 3 spikes through my heart.

lonely with no end and no start

I’m repeating my days when it comes to love

I’m a tangled maze when it comes to love

lonely

like theres no one to tell

lonely like I’ve lived through hell

I’m broken and leaking when it comes to love

yet still hoping and seeking when it comes to love

lonely

like the sky is vast

lonely and haunted by the past

feelings blind me when it comes to love

I’m always left behind when it comes to love

lonely

like a bird with no wings

lonely like a whale that can’t sing

I never feel seen when it comes to love

I’ll never believe when it comes to love

lonely

like the days are long

lonely like all hope is gone

I only ever perish when it comes to love

I’ll never be cherished when it comes to love

lonely 

as time slips through my fingers

lonely and the heartache lingers

I’m an endless void when it comes to love

I’m the least wanted choice when it comes to love

lonely

like I lost the game

lonely and this doesn’t change

I’ll never find a home when it comes to love

I’m forever alone when it comes to love

am beloved and beholden

I need to feel like I’m embraced

and cherished and golden

A princess, a queen, a top priority

all the things daddy never did for me

make me important in your world

this pathetic neglected girl

desperate for a taste of love

a taste of life and all the things thereof

like a thirsty desert dweller

like a foggy fortune teller

a blinded heart, but I cant unsee

a need so deep no one can ever meet

I lose you more

my fight or flight keeps showing you the door

my shattered heart bleeding out on the floor

I want to cling to you, I feel so needy

is there anything to cling to? no way to make it even?

you were already gone before I knew you were leaving

you brand me as wrong and won’t listen or believe me

your glossy eyes stare as if I’m not even speaking 

you twist your knife, I can’t stop leaking

feels a lot like I’m not healing, I’m breaking

its so hard to lose you, on repeat repeating

I never truly had you in the first place. Did I ?

0 mph seems to be the fastest pace you fly

all the times you seemed sincere while lying straight to my face, why ?

all the times you said you loved me then went and loved on her and her and her instead

the way you put me last is permanently burned in my head

now you sleep while I sob and you laugh while I’m in pain

how you so quickly sacrifice me for your own short-term gain 

how I never feel seen and you never try repair

how we started being mean and you stranded me there

how the loss of you just thoroughly defeats me

how your slow fade eats and eats and eats at me

I take a mental beating daily, with curdled cream

stinking up my hopes and dreams

every day

I lose you more

in whole new ways we have yet to explore

you were always one foot way out the door

the empty promises, the unfulfilled “more”

they haunt me as you turn to ghost

your mirage of riches that left me broke

I weep at the grave of us, I choke

every night

every day

as I lose you more

petals drooping low

with a scent thats gone sour

and nowhere else to grow

I’m a crumbled tower

jumbled on the floor

I’m the wind that lost her power

and doesn’t blow anymore

I’m a queen without a crown

a throne or a gown

I’m a forgotten memory

an abandoned town

I’m a boat trapped out at sea

a ghost who can’t release

prisoner who can not plea

visionary who can not see

I’m a stingless bee

theres nothing more to me

just a shadow of a dream 

that never came to be

tell me you feel the same

I think of you every day

all I want is you

all I need is here

sitting in front of me

making life how it’s supposed to be

all I need is here

all I know is now

not looking to the past

the future is yet to pass

all I know is now.

all I want is you

tell me you feel the same

I think of you every day

all I want is you.

All I see is us

hope that you see it too

want to spend all my time with you

all I see is us

All I feel is true

so are my feelings for you

don’t crack me into two

I’ll spill all over you

all I feel is true

all I want is you

tell me you feel the same

I think of you every day

all I want is you

its sweet and easy

if I want more

would you appease me?

maybe you should stay a while

maybe I just like your style

maybe I can pull you in 

if you think you’re feeling it.

if I get feisty 

will you still like me?

if I mess up with you 

can I still make up with you?

if you’ll have me care for you

stay a while and care, too.

you like me now

I’m like a novelty

and as you get to know

you’ll see whats wrong with me

are you gonna hit the road

if we don’t have common ground?

or will you stick it out?

I want you to stick around

if I get feisty

will you still like me

if I mess up with you

Can I still wake up with you?

if you’ll have me care for you

stay a while and care, too.

you like me now

not quite sure how

if I want it to last

what do you think of that?

we could turn to dust, you see

and, rather suddenly

Its the nature of the beast

but you mean something to me.

if I get feisty 

will you still like me?

if I mess up with you 

can I still make up with you?

if you’ll have me care for you

stay a while and care too.

by taking me off your hands.

you didn’t want me anymore

so I found a better man.

I loved you and you were so toxic.

I thought that you were, but you weren’t it.

You filled my ears with piles of bullshit

You put me down and I took the hit.

should I be loyal to a ghost? 

You acted alone when you put us to rest.

You broke your promises, and you promised the most

you broke my heart, at best.

he did you a favor, friend

by taking me off your hands

you didn’t like me anymore

so I found a better man.

I loved you and you lied

Said you want to and then just didn’t try

you blamed me and you lit the flames

now you have yourself to blame.

you said I’m a burden, that you wouldn’t stay

you’re just so fucking lame.

You didn’t care about hurting me,

like my heart is a game.

he did you a favor, friend

by taking me off your hands

you weren’t nice to me anymore

so I found a better man

theres more at play than you can see.

If you spin yourself in circles

you end up dizzy.

Dizzy as the room spins

dizzy like the world we’re in

night and day are endless twins

Dizzy in an endless dim.

Sometimes your shadow eats you alive

while you stand by at your own gates.

Sometimes no one else stops by

its your own tail that you chase.

You can cling to a soul thats long been gone

if your heart hurts, at least it isn’t stone.

feels like you do, but you two don’t belong

its okay to be alone.

dizzy from the pain of hurt

dizzy from the bite of time

sun and moon may only flirt

dizzy balancing the line.

crashing down on me

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

I can’t do romance

it eats at me

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

Its a complex dance

and I’m clumsy

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

like a wildfire

burning through the trees

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

Like a volcano

spilling in the sea

I dont stand a chance

and I’m never free

like a mob of ghosts

that peck at me

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

like an avalanche

crashing down on me

I don’t stand a chance

and I’m never free

theres nothing to do.

letting go already hurts,

I hate it that I love you.

Its hard to find words.

it’s hard to shut up.

I’m still hung up.

can we just make up?

It felt like a dream,

I don’t want to wake up.

It felt like you’re a gift,

I don’t want to break up.

its not up to me,

theres nothing to do.

letting go already hurts.

I hate it that I love you.

wish we felt safe,

wish we were secure.

wish you were staying,

wish you were sure.

My heart keeps spilling out.

I am the fool.

when you touch me I just melt,

I fell for you.

its not up to me.

theres nothing to do.

letting go already hurts,

I hate it that I love you.